365/365

I'm not trying to be the cliché person who will write the highlights of 20k7

I mean if you follow me enough im sure you do know what are the highlights of my 20k7

I'll be writing this post differently from what the tittle is about actually.


I'm gonna share some of my poems here

Poem 1
Outside the wind was brisk
Stood a pretty chick
Nobody dares to come near
She is a risk
She is sick
Everybody ignores to hear

Poem 2 (my friend likes this one)
Honey
You are a bitch
Money
Can make you rich

Poem 3
Tired of being ditch
I'm just a person
Nobody can ever love
Tired of not being rich
Is that the reason
For I wanna be a dove

Do you like it ?
Tell me which one is your favourite....

The thing is with writing not everybody can relate to what you are feeling but I truly believe that feelings are something personal.

I gave you three poems and I cannot expect everyone to like every poems and that's the art I guess. You can choose which ever you wanna share with your family and friends.

I really dont mind if you wanna share my humble piece of writing but please it would be nice and kind of you to keep the originality of the poems. I will very much appreciate it! 😘

It will also be a great honour if you put credit to me. -aida sarah-

Also what else yeah there is left to say... Hmmm

Oh yeah the skin journey!!

My package for HANNAN MEDISPA OR NOW KNOWN AS SKIN VALET is coming to an end.

This is by no mean sponsored by the clinic

It is only to the very end of my few treatments I get to know which is my favourite beauty worker?????? I forgot the name of what they call the workers at the clinic

I'm sad, I think...
I really dont know...

I mean what can I conclude is that...hihihi

To be continue............

See you next year!

This is Ara signing out and i'll write to you guys soon enough.

With love.

Alhamdulillah the end to 365/365 and im alive.

5. Flawless Skin Therapy (FST)

Hai this is gonna be a quick post bcz i have finals to study for

so harini Ara pergi treatment yang ke enam.

a.k.a fst yg kedua

Ara berhutang dengan uolls the fst procedure right...

1. double cleanse
2. scrub
3. steam (5-10 minit)
4. serum
5. mud mask (only the nose and forehead area)
6. derma (it will suck out all the dead skin cell)
7. oxygen spray (2xtimes) second times pat in
8. aloe gel spread
9. radio frequency (it is for bringing the blood circulation to the surface)
10. aqua swipe (alchol solution to kill bacteria)
11. Whitening peel (click here)
12. LED (click here)
13. Day cream

Kak Azleen is the best!

Done for today's treatment

4. Flawless Skin Therapy (FST)

(12:06PM)

Assalamualaikum & buenas tardes....

Welcome back to my skin journey!

You must be thinking that i'll be explaining what fst is... like how i would normally do but that is not it for today's entry.

The procedure for this treatment is kinda overwhelming for me to take it all in at once. Besides i'll be having another two session for this kind of treatment. So not to worry about that.

Why is it that i took almost a month for my next treatment when it should be and was schedule normally two week after the last treatment. It was schedule on 17/11/2017 but i had some kind of group project that needs to be done. I then reschedule it on 21/11/2017. I only then got to write this on 24/11/2017. Forgive me please! (3 three days late only duuhhhh still acceptable right???)

Well it wasn't because that i got caught up in my university life (liar?????) but it's just that i've been feeling like my skin needs a bit of rest or a short break from all the chemical peeling that i had in the month of November.

As you can see that my face after the Pigment-peel it was straight up red.

My face also kinda had a small break out after the whitening peel.

So due to that i decided to meet the Dr.

It was more to like telling her about my skin journey from the first treatment up until now.

What i told her:

1. Inno Facial & Carbon Peel (i have been very satisfied with inno facial and that i think the carbon peel work because ive seen improvement to my faded scars) 
2. Whitening Peel (told her about my breakout that i have two days after the treatment. she said that if it is two days after the treatment it could be because of allergic reaction not because of the treatment or even maybe because it was that time of the month which i dont think it was)
3. Pigment Peel (i didnt really emphasis on this one because when i had this treatment the breakouts has yet to subside) 
4. Flawless Skin Therapy (FST)
5. Flawless Skin Therapy (FST)
6. Flawless Skin Therapy

I added in one of my concern was that ive been seeing white patches on my skin like was it because of the carbon peel minor laser or the whitening or pigment peel chemical ingredients that didnt suit my face but really i couldnt blame the treatment like it could be "Panau" due to washing my face right after sports activities. Either way she had my face scan just like the way she did during the First Visit to Hannan Medispa.

The results are:

My Sebum and oil production = decrease

My wrinkle = increase

*she said this is due to the decrease of sebum which makes my skin dry and by that i should be applying a generous amount of moisturizer.

The production of bacteria = decrease *YEAY*

My skin colour brighten and that it is more even (which i agree with the brightening but not the 'more even part' like i know my skin and i know that i have sudden white patches coming out from no where that was never there to begin with.)

26/11/2017
hai sorry i forgot to conclude this..
the Dr. then ask about my skincare routine and i said that i have been running low on my body shop tea tree line. *i should do a product review here
she then suggest me to take the AKNICARE PRODUCT

Long story short i dont have the money yet to invest in another product and that i kinda been giving up on my face already. :(

I think i should stop here and i'll see you guys in my next post. <3

Thank you for reading! :)

3. Pigment Peel

(9:17 AM)

Assalamualaikum and a very good Sunday morning to my loyal readers. .

30/10/17

(5:56 PM)

Yo I have been kinda bz sorryyy

On Saturday 28/10/17 I had my forth treatment which is the pigment peel.
There wasn't that much of a different with the whitening peel except for the first step which I had to double cleanse and that there wasn't any steaming my face procedure. 

On a scale of 1-10 I feel only one for the pain bcz it stings a bit when I had to neutralise the solution on my face.

The therapist was kind and said that there would be a bit of peeling and drieness on the face. For how long I'm not sure. It's been day three after this treatment and yes I'm starting to see the flakiness of my complexion. Nothing too obvious.

So yeah here is my picture after the treatment. 

My left cheek

My right cheek

Do you guys see any improvement? 

I'll be having another 3 more treatment to go hopefully things will work out.

I think i should stop here and I'll see you guys in my next post. <3

Thank you for reading! :)

2. Whitening Peel

(4:02 PM) (14/10/2017)

Assalamualaikum & hai everyone..

I'm writing this entry using my phone. I'm not used to it. I usually type using my laptop.

Anyway,
This is my second treatment story.

HANNAN MEDISPA BANGI

Let me tell you how whitening peel is done.

So like the first treatment, they served me with a hot tea and a warm towel. After that they cleanse my face with a facial cleanser. Then my face was steamed with a steamer for like 10-15min.

Alright after all the normal procedure, my faced was applied with an antibacterial solution. Then, some of the sensitive area of my face was applied with vaseline only then my face was applied with some kind of whitening solution that was left dried for 3 minutes and then another second layer was applied right on top of the first layer of the same solution that was also left dried for 3 minutes. Mind you the whitening solution stings my nose.
(I hate the way I wrote this paragraph but I don't think I'll correct the sentences )

After the solution had been washed away, a serum had been applied to my face.

Here comes the machine part, it was an LED machine that covered my face but it wasn't the same one as before. Anyhow it was left on for about 10 minutes. As usual the eyes was covered with a black sunglasses. Lastly my face was applied with their moisturizer. As for the pain on a scale of 1-10, I give it a zero.

(Draft) (15/10/2017)
The treatment was about 45 minutes.

That is pretty much it. I didn't take a picture after the treatment but I can say that my face did brighten up a bit.

I feel like this entry wasn't informative enough. I'm sorry :(

I think I should stop here and i'll see you guys in my next post. <3

Thank you for reading. :)

Piala Pengetua Kolej Rahim Kajai 2017

(6:23 AM)

Assalamualaikum & a very good morning.

Such a morning post aye! ;)

This year I played as a GD or goal defence in SUKOL (sukan kolej) netball.

Yep another new position to me and I know how I play and I gotta say that I kinda suck playing this position. I lost the ball several times and really I don't know why but most of my passing wasn't a clear one. :(

Well anyway I believe that this is the first time ever I played a complete netball league. GRANNY IS TIRED . HAHAH I swear i aint that fit to play netball for two hours. 

Last year there were only two teams but this year there were six teams that was divide in to two groups. We played 7-1-7. Which means 7 minutes game and 1 minutes rest before another 7 minutes. On the second 7 minutes we change court.

Really I'm grateful that we didn't used two court bcz if we do I might just pass out. We used one court and that means we took turn with the other group which provide us more time to rest before the next game.

I wasn't aiming for SUKEM (sukan university) last year but I really hope that im chosen to represent my college this year. Eventhough I gotta say that my performance this year wasn't as good as last year. :(

Enough with the useless talk, I'm sure u guys are curious with the scores right?

I'm from team THE MAJESTY.

Oh and here is a picture of my team..

Hai guys.

I should be doing this entry as a weekend entry format.

I guess that is pretty much it for what happen on the 8th of October 2017. Yep SUKOL was a week earlier this year. If you haven't read the first one click here

See you guys again! 

I wrote it for a friend. ~4~

(0000)

Assalamualaikum & salam tengah malam..

A friend sent me this

how do you move on from someone. how do you move on from someone that used to be your the one. how do you face his mom at his house at night during tahlil. how do you sleep at night knowing that tomorrow morning you won’t receive his normal good morning and hearing him nagging about your bad habits. 

how do you function after losing part of you

welcome back to this series! 
if u have been following the other entry from this series then you will know the flow of this entry but if you are new here let me enlighten you. so basically i'll be sharing some paragraphs that i wrote for my friends.

U snooze U lose! Follow the series here...
~1~ Read this when you feel down with your studies.
~2~ Read this when you feel alone.
~3~ Read this when you feel like suicide isnt the solution.

My reply

In my opinion I think that moving on is somewhat personal and different for each kind of people.

Some may even laugh and be happy the next day without even caring about whatever happen the night before.(Breaking up) It could be that they are trying to cover up and pretend as if nothing ever happen the night before. Maybe perhaps they didn't even cry that night. To this kind of person the reality hits them after and it takes them awhile to notice that they lost apart of them. Only then they start to cry.

Heck every moving on will take awhile or a long time. It doesn't matter how long it takes as long as you know that you are moving on then that to me is fine enough.

One the other hand, some would cry the night until the next morning and it will be almost impossible for them not to cry. They would go to sleep crying and waking up the next morning crying. Maybe perhaps they would even lose their sleep just to grief. At one point it wouldn't be just a sad feeling but almost a habit to feel sad. To this kind of people they won't hold on to the feeling that long. They cry and they forget. Well maybe not completely but somewhere there. I personally think that these kind of people move on faster but it depends on each individual. 

I believe that there are other ways of moving on but as for now, I can only distinctively differentiate these two behaviors of moving on.

So to me moving on, isn't something that can happen whenever you want it to happen. It is not a moment but a process. I personally think nobody really moves on completely from another person. Somehow I just feel like moving on is just a pit stop until you'd find someone much more better so that you can replaced the old memories but being in a new relationship sometimes doesn't mean that you have move on completely from the other person.


In conclusion, don't be fully attached to anybody because someone once told me to need a person is a dangerous thing to do. ✌

oh and btw remember this post where i wrote that i wasnt able to go for netball practice for the time being because of my facial condition, well it didnt last long. i really couldnt help myself.. guess what did i do? the very next day i just simply go to the practice. what im trying to say here is that the treatment isnt that bad, to the point it can stop me from doing the things that i love and perhaps maybe my face got a little bit freak out because it was my first ever facial treatment.

I think i should stop here and i'll see you guys in my next post. <3

Thank you for reading! :)

1. Carbon Peel & Inno

(4:46 PM)

Assalamualaikum and a very good evening to my pretty & handsome readers..

So the journey begins..

Today approciamately at 2:15 PM i had my first appointment and im required to undergo two types of treatment. Mind you i went alone for my first ever facial treatment! ive never done any before, imma big gurl aye!

By right i schedule it on tuesday (3/10/2017) but then my class got cancel today. As soon as i reached Hannan MediSpa i was brought to the waiting hall and it look like this

-It's a good day to have a good day-

Next i was ushered to the room and they served me with a hot tea to drink and a warm towel.

The tea was actually delicious!

Enough with the small talk, now let me talk about the Inno treatment first.

Basically this treatment is what i would call it as "dirt suction and the day of acne death". Before they suck anything out from my precious skin, i had to go through the normal process which is cleaning the face with a cleanser. Unfortunately i wasnt able to take a glance to know the label of the cleanser. Next was steaming up my face with a steamer machine for about 10-15 minutes if im not mistaken. This is to open up my pores and also to soften the dirt inside my skin. During the steaming process my eyes were covered with cotton pads. Only then by using a mashine they suck all the dirt out from my face for about i think 30 minutes of process. At the end of it i got to see a bottle of slight milky color solution which it actually should be a clear solution if my face is squeaky clean. From what i've been told it is a mixture of excessive oil produce by my face, dirt, acne puss, whitehead and blackhead. On a scale from 1-10, i would give it a 2 for the pain that i felt throughout the process. I guess that is just about it for the first treatment.

Now imma talk about Carbon Peel.

For about 5-10 minutes my face was left at rest before starting the carbon peel. Right after the rest my face was applied with carbon mask mixture. Im not really sure what exactly are the ingredients in it. 

At first i thought that i'll be having a mesh on my face and then they will apply the carbon mixture on top of it then leave it to dry for about 20 minutes and then peel off. HAHAH
Nope gurl!

Where was i again? right... the carbon mask mixture was then left to dry for about 5-10 minutes. gurl i wasnt ready for a laser poking?! HAHAH yep u heard me there is a slight laser usage in this treatment. During the treatment my eyes were covered with some kind of "pirate eye patch but on both eyes." not complaining but there was like a really really small dose of pain, on a scale of 1-10 im giving it a 4. It is not painful it's just that i can feel a slight pinch and a slight heat with every laser shot. I really dont know how to describe it. I might just be freaking out for nothing really. Done with it in 30 minutes.

More information of carbon peel from another customer.

Last of all
Is a LED Mask which looks like this

yep kinda look a bit monstrous 

I'm not sure if this LED mask will be given at the end of every and any kind of treatment or only at the end of carbon peel treatment. From what i've been told this LED mask will boost the collagen production in my own words i think it is for the healing process after going through somewhat a rougher and extreme day for my face. (in a good way) I was giving a dark sunglasses to protect my eyes from the LED lights. I had to wore the mask for about 10-15 minutes. At the very end of it my face was applied with some kind of cream i dont remember the name  but it is to lessen the redness or swelling that might occur.

My bare face after the treatment under natural lighting

Hoping to see good result soon enough.

This is my journey, some will say that it is a waste of money but really you might splurge your money on something else and this is what i splurge my own money on. So dont judge and please be kind.

Cash in two of my treatments already i have got five more to go. You can do this dearself!

on a side note, i have netball practice this evening but i aint going because i really dont think my face is ready to expose itself to the sun and sweaty activity for the time being.

I think i should stop here and i'll see you guys in my next post. <3

Thank you for reading! :)

First Visit To Hannan MediSpa Bangi

(10:22 PM)

Assalamualaikum, How are you my lovely readers?

Before i wanna talk about my first visit to Hannan MediSpa Bangi.. A little quick update about my life like bluergghhh who would have cared anyway?

1) So as a degree student i just entered my first semester for my second year in UKM! wow

2) 1/10/2017. Yesss welcome October

Please be good.

3) I've actually been searching around for a good dermatologist for my acne scaring condition. I believe that my skin condition isnt that bad to actually see a dermatologist at the hospital so i decided to see an aesthetician which is more to beauty related.

From my researched i've come up with a few options:

1. Klinik Dr. KO
- this is like the most famous clinic for beauty skin related condition but it is somewhat expensive to me as a student.
- they have branches everywhere in Malaysia, so fret not where to find them.

2. Klinik Ranjit
- famous for their affordable and wonderful results yet there is also some negative review about how they treat their customers. Mind you they have a waiting list of course to get a fast reply, friendly treatment, a long and in depth consultation might seem what impossible.
- located at Subang Jaya, Malaysia

3. The DRx CLINIC
- most of their treatment are laser based which this statement is solely based on my reading. im not really sure if it is true and if im not mistaken they will give you a range of product that suits your skin condition from their clinic. correct me if im wrong.
- located at Midvalley and Sri Hartamas, Malaysia

4. Hannan MediSpa
- it was by my mum's friend recommendation and my mum recommend it to me. Pretty much it is a gamble here but after my reading i heard good reviews so why not give it a try aye
- they have a few branches

• Bangi
• Ampang
• Putrajaya
• Damansara

REVIEW START HERE

It's not really a review, well i would rather say that i'll be writing my honest first impression here.. i would like to inform that all opinions are not sponsored. 

At 4:45 PM

We reached there and i was required to fill up a form. Nothing much just basic information about myself. Then my mum and i were ushered to the consultation room where i'll be seeing the Dr.

Like every other normal consultation they will have the face scanned to know how bad is the skin condition. 

My result from my sketchy memory

• 20% wrinkles (i know pre aging) 
• 40% open pores/large pores
• 16% of i dont remember what it is but mine is high because at my age it should be only 4%.
• High secretion of oil a.k.a OILY FACE
• unfortunately that is all that i remember

The Dr. said that my skin condition is known as PIHP which stands for Post-Inflammatory HyperPigmentation. 

The Dr. suggest me to take the 7x treatment which surprisingly i did went on with what she said. This is what the Dr had planned out for my package in order and it consist of :

1. Inno Facial & Carbon Peel
2. Whitening Peel
3. Pigment Peel
4. Carbon Peel
5. Flawless Skin Therapy (FST)
6. Flawless Skin Therapy

The Dr did a great job of serving me. no complain on that! well apart from the fact that i wish the customers are required to the paying method of 3 times payment instead of only 2 because gawd im just a student aint got that much of a money but really i wouldnt be here if there is a good range of drugstore products that actually works for me aye.

Since it was the weekend, sadly i wasnt able to book in a treatment right after the consultation but i must say that im looking forward for my first treatment that is schedule in a few days from now on!

This is one hella long entry that i actually took some time to write and by that i hope it is informative to you. I'll be discussing in depth about what each treatment is about in my next journey, so stay tuned for that! 

I think i should stop here and i'll see you guys in my next post. <3

Thank you for reading! :)

LAST VISIT TO HANNAN MEDISPA? WHY?

I wrote it for a friend. ~3~

(0026)

Assalamualaikum & salam tengah malam..

It is the first time I'm doing an entry at such hour.

Sharing time.

A friend sent me this

why people keep thinking that by trying to kill herself is gonna solve her problems. and i don't understand why people keep blaming "her". aren't we supposed to find out the reason why "she" want to kill herself. am i making any sense rn dude. i don't think so. there's so many thought and it's literally dripping down from my brain through my ear rn. overcapacity in my brain la weyh 😂

My reply

Well first of all I'm gonna be cliché and say that she isnt religious enough. She isnt strong enough for having such a basic thinking. Or maybe that they KNOW suicide won't solve anything and will only adds up to more problem. But you know yeah probably she just wants to end the pain that she is facing. Which maybe it does actually stop all the unbearable pain.

So even if we do find out the reason why she wants to kill herself what power do you have to change things for the better. What can we actually do? If the person itself doesn't even want any help and that's why there is a saying "the only person who is holding you back is yourself". I mean we might be able to help her but until when? Bcz we all know that it is really up to her whether to give up or to keep on fighting for the life she actually deserve.

As for blaming on her for having such thoughts , as a human we will always find something or someone to put a blame on basically everything and anything. It is just how it is. You know why? Bcz we often tries to find a logical reason for everything that ever happens and when we couldn't find any we come up with our own reason that we think is logically enough to us as long as you yourself isn't the reason why. Indeed such a coward we are.

Sorry I gave u paragraphs.

Please excuse the indecisive use of pronouns.

Sometimes I feel really sorry for my friends having to read paragraphs from me but can't help it. I just do.

Anyway hope everyone had a good day and tomorrow will be better.



Signing off
goodnight everyone or should I say good morning bcz it's already am. Haha I'm lame.

I think i should stop here and i'll see you guys in my next post. <3

Thank you for reading! :)

I wrote it for a friend. ~2~

(10:33 AM)

Assalamualaikum & a very good morning to my lovely readers..

So i must say that im not very good at giving people motivation whatsoever heck im the worst but i just keep on doing so without realising it, without the intention to because all i wanted to say is "Are You Okay?"  actually. Which i know there will be no use if i ask that question because all i get would be "I'm fine. I'm just tired. You dont have to worry."  on a lucky day while some other day i'll be getting only an "I'm fine."

I could assure you that if you are a girl and you are reading this then im sure you'll be having the same thought as mine which would sound pretty much like this "You are LYING". Believe me im so very tired being lied to.


Anyway i just hope that these next few paragraphs will somehow help anybooody who needed it in some kind of way.


I've never been away from my family and I do admit that I'm very well attached to my family as they are my support system. However, I do realise that having friends around is also very important.


The thing is that with people who doesn't share any blood relation with you - they can be very well attached or just somehow takes you for granted.


Sometimes I often wonder too - do they really care for me or are they just pretending to care about me.

We can never know can we? Unless we ask them but believe me that people can still lie even if you seek only the truth from them.

Sometimes you have to be strong not because it is the only option but it is because that you are actually strong in fact stronger than the person who you think you are.

Whatever I'm babbling about at the moment might not be the right words that you need to hear but insyallah I'm always there if you need anything. Well I might not be able to be physically right next to you but i really hope that a pair of ears to listen and shoulders to cry on can somehow be enough for you.

Believe me I'm not saying this just because that everyone will say it when something dramatic happens but I'm saying this as a friend who actually really one hundred percent cares about you. Even during the days when you feel like nobody is there for you, deep down in your deepest part of your heart you do know that there are people who always care for you.

Your parents, they really care about you and they always will.

At the end of the day we often forget that we have Allah to turn to not only during the darkest days to beg for strength but even during the brightest days to be thankful for all the blessings He has granted.

I think i should stop here and i'll see you guys in my next post. <3

Thank you for reading! :)

I wrote it for a friend. ~1~

(draft)

Assalamualaikum & hai everyone..

who thought i was dead or wish that im dead after the last post?

Anyway it is so nice to be back and just write and be in love with words, saying and sentences basically thoughts that are express in wording in some kind of language that we understand.

So what would today's entry be about?
Nothing much.
Just trying to be a good friend.

I would like to apologize beforehand if what i wrote kinda hurt anybody in any kind of way. Remember that words can be so soothing and encouraging but sometimes it can be as sharp as a knife too!


I believe that you can succeed like others. It's just that your path would be a little bit more tougher. Tears and struggles would be your best friend this is because we ain't born smart like others. Find a friend who is smarter. Used them. Study with them. Be that dumb and stupid friend around them. Itsokay, if you are lucky enough and that they are kind enough they will help you. Even if you dont understand anything in class just go to class because at least you have heard the topic no need to necessarily grab whatever the topic is about. I mean if you can why not. Staying in your room wouldn't make you study. It's honestly a waste of time. What ever you do make sure you are struggling because if you feel comfortable with your progress then trust me you ain't going no where. We have to work harder to become not stupid while others maybe work harder to become more smarter. But that's okay it doesn't mean that they are better than us or we are better than them. It's the struggle and effort you put in. You get 2.0 and everyone will ask why didn't you get 4.0? What have you been doing?? And what they didn't see is the effort you put in just to be where you are now. So it doesn't matter what you get, what matter is that was it your best? Yes your journey would be longer and harder perhaps but it doesn't mean that you are failing. Your progress might be little. Slowly but surely dear. Never give up. There is nothing you couldn't do if you put your mind into it. For you sayang 🤗😘

stay strong and never give up please! not for me but for your personal own good!

I think i should stop here and i'll see you guys in my next post. <3

Thank you for reading! :)

A note to self

Suicide affect your family more than you. Trust me!!!

Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and sissy won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they’ve said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can’t help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can’t handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn’t know you killed yourself, he’s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn’t stop for days. It’s two years later. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn’t know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn’t succeed like you did, but she tried…your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don’t just affect you. They affect everyone. Don’t end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can’t get better if you give up. I’m here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we’ve NEVER talked before, I’m here for you. Copy and paste this as your status to show people there are people out there that care.

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