Covid-19 PKP #3

One summer,
I found a guy,
Name Alex Turner,

We spend the night together,
He look me in the eyes,
I hope to freeze this moment forever,

I woke up to the smell of his leather,
Extraordinary you cannot buy,
Lucky to have you as my lover,

One day he become a father,
I cry,
Tears of happiness for a daughter,

You are like no other,
Your words are never dry,
Constantly making me feel better,

You sat in front of the computer,
There is somethig you wanna try,
Which had turn you into a cheater,

I'm just something you hold onto for later,
I'm ready to take all the blame,
I'm aware that i wasn't a good listener,

I'm sorry for having a disorder,
I'm sorry you got caught in my flame,
I'm sorry for I didn't try harder,

You promise to never lay a finger,
Baby,
Your words got sweeter,

I guess action speaks louder,
Baby,
You are just a hunter,

Even when we are already over,
It is as if i had never known you,
There is just so much about you i haven't discover,

Burying the pain deep under,
What to do?
I'm just trying my best breathing underwater,

How does it feel to pull the trigger?
Is it nice?
Witnessing me turning into a drinker,

Lets talk when I'm more sober,
Though I'm scared that i might fall twice,
Maybe i should give you the cold shoulder?

It's the day after,
I saw you holding hands with a girl,
Who i thought was your sister,

It's like an unspoken order,
My mind was in a whirl,
Truly an eye opener,

In this story I'm just a joker,
Pushing through the day,
Which seems to go slower,

Gosh, i miss your laughter,
Echoing through the hall way,
Now everything is just bitter,

Days went on with me feeling under the weather,
Lately it has been cloudy,
Most of the time it shower,

In my head i whisper,
Can you stop being so rowdy,
I guess never,

Your words still linger,
Like a broken record,
Stuck in my head at every corner,

I suppose you are a composer,
Arranging every chord,
Within a snap of your finger,

I honestly thought you are my one true owner,
Where everything i must obey,
It is time for me to accept that we are no longer,

We fall back into being strangers,
You took a different alley,
While I'm just spending my day under the covers.

Look at me now braving through the temporary pain with blood in my hand and cuts that wound so deep to the point where the scars had been so ugly yet it is still there for everyone to see. This too will pass, this pain is worth. I will grow stronger than before i whisper to myself.

-AIDA SARAH-
@thegeurl_aidasarah
#aidawrites

Covid-19 PKP #2

Death
Where should i start
Where should i begin

Death
There will no longer be beats in your heart
There will only be the colour pale for your skin

I wish you could stay
But nothing my dear
Nothing last forever
You have found your ray
But dear
How can i live when you are gone forever

Your journey has come to an end
I hope you dont have any regrets
I dont wanna believe that this is the end
Your good deeds i shall never forget

Life for me is constantly going
Life for me is still as miserable
How can i live with this longing
It is beyond bareable

Such sorrow
For you are someone i borrow
Such grief
I hope you hold strong onto your belief

Rest in peace up there
For I will handle the rest

Alfatihah.

Covid-19 PKP #1

Listen,
For i have a story to tell,

It was last spring when i first saw you,
Or could it actually be fall,

Just know that,

The sun starts peaking thru the clouds,
The birds start cheerping,
The flowers start blooming,
And you my dear,
Made the time stop,
With that cute little perfect smile,

Please notice that,

Even if i dont look at you,
Know that right at the corner of my eyes,
Every steps of yours i follow,
Even if im just a speck of dust,
Know that i carry this huge hope in me,
Maybe, just maybe, you would look at me,

Ambitious could be my middle name,
Ambitious but only for you and only about you,
Ambitious when we both know things wouldnt happen the way i want it to be,

This time you took the time to look back,
But if i have the courage to shout out your name again,
Can you promise me that you will be everything i need?
Or will you just drive by and I will remain in your already faded memories?

That two second gaze turns into a poetry,
For you i become a poet,
Because everything about you is poetic,
And every sad song turns into a love song.

I then feel a sudden cold breeze,
Brushing against my arm,

Without a warning it was winter,
I check right beside me,
You are no longer.

This longing become heavier,
They say time will heal me,
I just wish that you did stay longer.

But darling,
Nothing last forever.

Maybe it is written in our fate,
For I shall always be your secret admire,
Maybe this abundance of faith,
Is not enough and for you shall always be the one i desire.